is she engraved in your mind?
do you salivate like some rabid animal
nothing but your own selfish desire to feel skin on skin
the warmth as you enter.
******* deaf
******* blind.
must be as the
blood seeps through the sheets and
she
s c  r    e            a              m                    
                                                          s
fifth platue washing over you
your own personal ****** so
congratufuckinglations
black market bargain made
five minutes of the worlds greatest pleasure
for a lifetime of her
fear.
so *******.
******* for taking what wasn't yours
******* for giving her scars
******* for teaching her that she is nothing more than
a warm place for a man to rest
nothing more.
******* for clocking out
******* you're not human.
******* for the nightmares
******* for the terror
******* for every Wednesday in the therapists office
for the Zoloft
for the way i flinch whenever my girlfriend touches me
for my panic attacks when i feel her skin on my skin.
you stole what wasn't yours
so now
my life will be spent
trying to find something to fill that void.
*******.