When it comes to boys I’m always attracted to Rare smiles, brighter than the fluorescent lighting of a hospital Painful. I’m drawn to boys who will Love me intensely, rubbing alcohol into my wounds And leaving me bare And clean, And stinging.
When it comes to boys, I trust too easy Time after time they break it and I still leave my young heart in their calloused hands, I still sign the consent form And watch the scalpel split my chest I let them take and take and take Until there’s no more blood left to give.
When it comes to boys, I let them observe me Plastic crinkling as their fingers move Against my cold skin, I let them touch me Because I want to be touched But maybe not by them.
When it comes to boys I spill my guts, To please them And every ******* time, They let their veins bulge from their Slender arms, Teasing me with the idea That they would let me pull out Each strand, They never let me. They steal each *****, each breath And they never give me a single vessel.
Every boy I’ve ever kissed, Has bit into me As if I am theirs to devour They swallow me whole, And when it comes to boys I am so Gullible “It says I love you on the ceiling” And I look up When it comes to boys I believe them, Even when the lie detector Drowns out every note Of the songs I’ve written for them
The songs I’ve written for them, Tear my fingers open With every unheard strum And still
When it comes to boys I forgive them Even when they Unplug my life support And watch me as I flatline.l