My friends don't like me. I know I heard. Guess they ain't my friends After all
But that's okay No matter how it hurts I understand.
Maybe it's cuz I *** Cigarettes too much Maybe cuz I have too much Ache on my face. Like a never ending game Of connect the dots.
Maybe it's cuz I try to be happy And uplifting Because I don't want others Feeling as low as I do.
I'm not too surprised It's been this way my whole life
I've been the scrape goat For even my own family
I have issues may of them Will never know Because I would never Burden anyone With the knowledge That I hold inside
Still it hurts.
And still If they ask it of me I will listen to their trival problems Even though if they knew They'd say I had it worse.
They complain about their parents While I knew what my father's **** looked like By four. While I knew what it looked like To see your mother get thrown at the wall. While I know my mom blames me For everything. I still listen. For why should my problems be of anymore value then theirs?
They complain about their siblings When I'm sure mine Inherited our fathers sick mind? But just can't prove it yet Or maybe I can But am to afraid to put the math Together in fear Of what the truth is.
I say I don't care and ignore The brokenness that is inside My mind.
Because I believe I am strong When in fact I am weak.
Yet I heard them say They don't like me. Complaining about me
Why is my instinct telling me To listen and to agree? To these foul words they say bout me?
They are mearly children Talking gossip Yet my 8 year old sis Seems to agree...
There will be no uprising In this story. No lesson learned Only me Still realizing How much people don't care.
Only the same pattern Of disappointment. And failure to connect to someone.
They don't like me And who can blame them? No one ever has