Groggy and hungover Pounding in her head Aggravated by the gull screeching Lulu….. Lulu They call her girlhood name
Same each morning Get used to it all over again Grappling with her self-pity and disgust Dead weight She can’t not hold herself back
She’s seen so much worse, in the day Bellies torn open, guts strewn Limbs twisted like contortionists Heartbreakingly graceful Rotting, swollen faces she dreams of
A man, mummified Head held up ******* from a ****** straw Invisible man What did that soul see when the bandages came off
Welcome to the final decline Still got her mind, probably Not sure what she wants to lose first The inevitable slide Unfit for the task
It’s her own fault They were her choices But where could she have gone right What had she to do- what she had to do That’s all over, done, and gone now
Bloodbaths and blow-ups She’d forgotten safety Her ground still shakes Run for cover Still, everyday, everytime
Why her not them Why them not her How dumb is God “Survivors guilt” But the doctors know nothing
Solitude made for her Broken way too much Why can’t they let her be Isolation… fight that war Wrong choice then and no choice now
Desolate in disrepair She’s in ruins more than it The house leans in around her They’re a good fit It works on its own
Devil or angel She has it back The original vice Good thing she’s all alone
She doesn’t know Doesn’t want to remember Distance and isolate Intimacy out of the question
She’s useless anyway What good is left Where has hope gone? Bloodbaths take lovebeds
She struggled She fought Stalemates rule Why must she live
Good and right Evils be gone War is blinding Wipe away schoolgirls
Why have hope Why bother with love Nothing gold can stay Why fight a victorless war
This is about a woman struggling to recover from her experiences in WWII. She describes her morning routine in the present while flashing back to the past.