You and I have fantasised About too many golden sunrises And yet we always sleep through dawn Always wake up seconds too late When grandeur has faded into familiarity
Our bodies are bruised From all the invisible rocks we have hurled at each other Our lungs tired from breathing toxic air Our ankles sore from dragging chains My fingers are covered in papercuts From the edge in your voice
We have handcuffed each other And put leashes around our necks Confining each other to this birdcage house Afraid to be the one that has to watch The other fly free
Yesterday I tried to find the movie stub From our first date And instead found my pockets Stuffed with fist-fulls of receipts For things neither of us bought
Like the black hole in our bed That occupies centre stage in our polka dot bedsheets It swallows the words we speak And refuses to let them echo How many conversations have we drowned With alcohol and tears How many keys have we thrown away To lie in a mound ten feet tall Keys that could have opened the doors To our secret stash of confessions and apologies That could have saved us On the nights that you wrap your arms around me I can feel your body curving along the edge of the hole Trying not to fall through Determined to maintain miles between us Even though I can feel your breath on my neck
Our living room is covered with pictures of strangers Because we are afraid of stapling our own faces to the walls Afraid of calling this prison a home Afraid of making what had started out as temporary A permanent affair So instead we crawl from day to day Skipping each sunrise as it comes