i am a never-ending spiral of missing you. in dreams i find myself in your presence, these dreams turn to nightmares as reality is your absence.
i breathe in the air, and it smells like the autumn we spent together- hauntingly warm and beautiful. it smells like sunlight and leaves and happiness. each inhale brings your memory closer, each exhale pushes you further.
every white car I see is your Subaru. the one that took us to the yellowing aspens. every song has your jazz. i could only listen to mumford and sons for three months. every second is the absence of your embrace.
i know you're gone. i KNOW. i see your pictures with her and i can see you're happy. you have all of my happiness. you really do.
i have no consolation. no time. none at all. never-never.