i remember a dream i had
when you and i were still together
it was the one where you held me against you
and twirled my hair around your finger
and whispered sweet nothings into my waiting ears
and promised me you'd never hurt me

but i also remember waking up
alone, in your cold bedroom
you were already gone
and i could feel the bruises on my neck
in the shapes of your fingers
and i remember being terrified to get out of your bed
because you were ****** at me for no reason at all
and you were in the kitchen
waiting for me.