I'm trying but
I can't even cry anymore
I feel like a monster
Am I detached?
Am I ignoring it?
What happened to before
When I couldn't stop myself from crying
When I was so worried about her dying
And now that the doctor is talking
Saying she might not make it
There's a point system
At what point do you let go
I don't ever want to though
She can't even breathe on her own
There's so much
She'll never fully recover
So do we hope she gets better
Or do we let go
She's not responsive anymore
Not like she was before
Trying to talk
Squeezing my hand
But now it's different
Now she doesn't
Can she even hear us anymore?
Does she know what's going on?
Everyone is coming back into town
But there's talk of a funeral now
I thought I knew how serious it was
But I'm not even thinking now
Am i avoiding the situation
Did I care once and now I have nothing else to give?
Why can't I feel?
Am I too broken to even know that I'm broken?
How can I let her go,
If I can't even bring myself to cry anymore