what is it like?**
to smile in front of a crowd
but going home, to an empty room
then crying to yourself

what is it like?
to laugh out loud
to show that you are okay
even when you are not

what is it like?
to counsel the weak
but knowing that you cannot even
keep yourself afloat

what is it like?
to live each day
beating yourself up
thinking you do not deserve anything

what is it like?
to say 'I'm fine'
because you want to be a hero for others
but you are shattering inside