At night my emotions sit on top of me like bricks The monster in my head reads a bedtime story about A fat girl who does not eat. It is a tragedy disguised as a triumphant heroine’s quest, read in the voice of my mother. I do not remember what the girl is looking for, but she keeps going, keeps digging her nails into the Earth, searching for the promises that her monster makes. She finds bits of debris that she cannot name and fungus and grains of sand that cut like sea-glass. The monster sighs, “Just keep digging and you will find victory, happiness, safety, and love.” The girl becomes confused and falls into the dug-up ground like a limp fish, she cannot breathe underground, and she ***** dirt like air.