I have returned Although I must, To this glittering bowl of dust I had to,
In this so similar form The jackals recognize my shade In the dark, they watch and stalk, My moon to daylight sun
The seasons of my change. The pupae without Awaiting for grand mals Or some winged departure Of my light
Expecting me to fall...
But seasons stir with lightfoot Pages turned, Between the numbers in all that Man's made Hands knocking hours Ticking seconds Minutes crawling Under every door
Like a shadow unnoticed underfoot Moments walk on wires As life watches from below Or is it vice versa? The Circe du foils The urchins that we drown to be Voila! Not much ventured In the rings and side shows We spectacles Of flesh Fallen and fearing The feelings
Of just before Steps (Beyond) If catlike careful some nimble beast
I must be To return from the place That once birthed and attempted ****** the unlearned me I am too American in the humidity The parasitic biting The heat
I'm a stranger in strange islands Beautiful mystique Of superstitious super strength The beliefs become aswang legends Come true life The slaughtered pig as sacrifice
I vomited and **** out My inner being Waters of life projected out The length of tongue and the depth Of insides Gushing out Even through my tears And delirium... Possessed as tho' a lever had been pulled To reverse what flowed in The nutrients The rehydration of excretions Sucker punched to spew
And thru the pain I knew The swine and its smug snorting laughter And the old ones in the villages Living among their own dead In the trees and sands and sea Their jealousy of City boy me The threat I must be Fearful of what I might **** Tho I dare not and have not Done Unto As they have now done to he I have karmic grace To make them mine,
But what and why would I want Such long gone then and agains Or rage against In revenge? At my beautiful motherland The face of my race The home of my blood
I keep my silence as their defeat Render them As a breeze through palm trees and hiss of sea Rumors of the weather Food poisoning