Slept 12 hours too late last night
Still feel tired as **** that's right.
At a point of life where a day is a fight
Where people get loose and you lose the ones that's tight

**** all people in this world no height
**** so sad that my lows feel high as a kite
At a point of life where the shadow is bright
Only **** to save me in these hard ******* times.

Hard year trash year but I still made dimes
Feel like I'm fallin and my crash is worse than a chime
Somehow still made people laugh like I was fine
People aint real they hear me speak and think it's a sign

All mens leave you when they see you down low like a mine
Everybody scared to reach for you so they let you fall all the time
***** I declined don't **** my vibe no kenny I wish I'd rewind,

To the old me
A happier me
When I wasn't a poetic insanity
Now they mad at me

Ask why I changed think it's my fault yet they throw slack on me
Most people don't take you seriously
May speak hard facts cause I know ****
I've seen ****
But nothing to compare to the actualities

Now everyday 2 am that's who I am
I done ****** up too many things call me blem
Alone in this world no man no dem
Cold summer catching feelings all over again

I got people who was close till they found somethin better
Now all they do from time time is send me letters
Postin **** on medias I got these ******* in they feelings even better
They tryna defend themselves sayin I did **** yet they left me when all I did was make them better

Others just call my phone all day
Cause they bored and they need love in a way
Yet they treat you like you trash like you is **** in this place
And they finna throw you up destroy your whole life in your face

But nah I won't complain
I guess I am lame
This year lost people, dead in the grave
Lost fam in the way

Oh yea I am cray?
Lived through a lot in a year ******* cut me off in the day
Learned everybody fake when you really need them
Turn their back around you when you later see them

Learned a lot during freshman year
No guilty conscience no remorse no beer
Just pure emotions, sentiments of sad, lone and my fears
Finally being realized like losing people you loved yet showing no tears
Where you so weak every lil thing cuts you up like spears

So **** friends, **** everybody, everybody fake no joke
Sometimes I feel like my heart stoppin no stroke
Most of you flip more than pancakes no joke.
Went from happiest to saddest dude in the curve to broke
But I guess lyin, to make yourself feel better is a hoax
Make me catch feelings then see me break on the low.
I hope yalls are happy now you made a dude go down go forth
Thank you is all I have to say, that's all folks.
-SVL