I’m standing on a cliff
Peering over the edge
About to go over
If I fall
What will happen to me?
Can it somehow hurt more than this?
Uncertainty stops me every time
I fear I may regret
An action whose consequences I cannot see
I stay in a cycle
I can’t break out of it
I can’t stop it
I can’t leave it
I can't
I fantasize two conclusions to this story
One I end up happy
And one I just end everything
I don’t know my future yet
But whatever it holds
Will get better
Even if I must take matters into my own hands