I do not understand his ways
I cannot predict his moves
I do not think I even approve his ways
I do not think it is his ways

The phone call brings more questions
Call that got me looking back to my thinking
Can this be the universe shifting things for me

When the struggle continues
And there is no peace
The call rings and on the other end it is the voice

I do not want to hear this voice
I do not want to see this being
But here we are
The universe possibilities made it possible

You are favoured
why is that I do not know
Even my heart worships you
I want to deny it that privilege
but it dishonour me
My own heart beats for someone else
My heart beats but for me

I feel betrayed
My heart is smiling
My thoughts are at peace
My emotions are calm

How can this happen
The universe made possible but for me
Oh! Why is she the chosen one
My struggles means nothing
Nothing that I agree to sacrifices
To sacrifice what I thought will bring me happiness

So I am back in your books
Seeing me in your books makes you happy
Your happiness is a struggle to me
While you are happy I am dying inside

No one understands
No one sees this
No one hears my cry

I have made the sacrifice
Sacrifices for my own happiness
I do not know how long my heart will last
But as long as it last you are happy

I want to wake up
I want this to be a dream
The dream that will never creeps in sleep no more
I will never know
As I do not know now