i am happy in my dreams with you
but dreams are not real-

    i am happy
    or at least i try to be.

i am happy when you comfort me
though i wish that-

    maybe the next time
     i drown, you'll be
around to touch me-

i am happy because i am your friend
    and that our bond transcends
        fragility: the mortal carcass of it all-

    i am happy
    or at least you soothe the pain.

i am happy in this safe little nook in my brain-
and heart, maybe-

where there is nothing
but you and i and
warmth-

      i am happy in my dreams with you
                                                  but dreams are            
                                          
                            simply
                                                          ­        a figment
                                                   
                                              of illusion