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Amanda Stoddard
Poems
May 2017
Wet Blanket.
It took time to rewrite my past
in a way that looked pretty on a page
but everything-
just eventually
turned
uncomfortable.
It feels
like i'm always
wearing wet clothes,
sulking because I tried to drown
these memories I didn't want at the surface.
But I needed air-
so they came to catch it with me.
They demanded a home inside of my world
and so they put me under.
Now I'm clawing my way to oxygen
but this doesn't feel like
just water anymore
more sheet metal than surface.
Every move made
by anyone-
myself included
feels like a weight.
I keep fighting my way
to sanity and
I keep fighting
to remove this memory.
but it says with me
and it screams
every time you touch me.
How will I ever be okay
with comfort?
How do I cope
with something
so adamant about
keeping me under.
These dark images
invade the back of my head.
It's not my fault
someone
took away my childhood.
So why am I the one-
drowning?
#childhood
#trauma
Written by
Amanda Stoddard
United States
(United States)
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