im probably not supposed to talk about this
but I'm a self-destructive mess
like a volcano that never erupts
i just burn myself on the inside
i know i'm feeling self-destructive when I listen to hip-hop
and am able to picture hurting myself in my head
jumping off cliffs
drowning in my own blood
stabbing myself in the eye
getting hit by trains
my brain gets really creative if im not careful
sometimes i wonder when i'll get enough courage to make my self-destructive thoughts a reality