Beep Beep Beep
Alarm clock I think
reach out to turn it off
can’t move or even breathe
open eyes, way too bright
Needles in my skin
wonder what they are bringing in
no alarm just heart monitor
mom crying by me
did someone die?
i try to speak
tube in throat restricting me
but yet I try to breathe
glances over at me yells
flinch is all I can do
doc remove the tube
internal pleas coming out of me
however so silently
here we go I think as I fall back asleep
eyes wide open
brain fuzzy
mom no longer besides me
hello I croak
hello a voice calls
your safe now
she smiles so kind
sure maybe I reply
tough rough go I’ve had she explains
starving girls get that way
food is pumping into me I now get as she explains
i cry
no more thin body comments
so long boy who dated me for my thinness
goodbye gymnastics who caressed the thin so dear
all must welcome the fat back or leave my sweets
but if they go at least I won’t be leaving to