i envy those whose eyes are set on one star;
that they know how to reach it no matter how far.
i envy how they know which rocket ship to take;
i envy how they know what decision to make
how they know which gear to manipulate.

i envy those who already know their fate.

while i, with confused eyes,
am still staring at the sea of lights.
still choosing, hoping, for the perfect glimmer;
perfect for me - a dreamer.
but it just seems like it's still lightyears away from me.

but i'll wait.

perhaps, i am not meant to stay on one star.

-F.T. 03/01/17