A rush, panic nothing calm or sure as if we hadn't done this ten, twenty, thirty times before and now a prop's missing a line's dropped but no-one let on, the show musn't stop for our touch-ups of makeup to make us look worn a fake limp - a real one, a tired shirt torn, coins on the table, ribbon in my hair, waistcoat, tie, jacket and a deadly stare - there's no time to wallow in success or mistake the stage is a world and we only get one take.