There was ***** and stolen cigarettes There were long nights in her bed There was a 10 year old learning about things he shouldn't know There was secrecy, "our little secret"
She made me feel special She was older and mature This stuff was mature; Even if it hurt Even if I bled Even if made me sick
I learned that a child's body is a play thing, Locked inside a damp, broken toy box until it was to be used again I learned that a child's mind was of little value without its sweet and soft body
No child ever came out of that house, that locked toyboxΒ Β
A child died in that house, Mind damaged beyond repair But thank goodness it's body is still in tact An empty body, An empty husk of a child, It's much easier to use
Without that body this child is worthless
I apologise if this poem comes of as glorification/fetishisation, it's not intended to. Trigger warning for themes of CSA/*******.