If I told you I was dying.
Drowning in my sleep
If I told you I was bleeding
Wrists gushing from the vein
If I told you I was ******* insane.
If I told you I was dying.
Choking in my wake.
And sinking in a lake.
If I told you
I can’t take it anymore.
Every inch of my soul has been explored.
Yeah I’ve told you time and time again
The palm of my hand is so cold
This feeling gets quite old.
I’ve been waiting
Always waiting
For the right time
To tell you that I am not okay.
To tell you that I will not obey
These commands
That seek to **** me further.
I have lost all hope
Because I am losing myself!
Don’t tell me lies
Don’t say it will be alright
Because I am telling you
You can do nothing to stop everything.
You command me to be happy
But bad things keep happening
You treat depression as a concession
Just waiting to charge me
So this is my confession
I hate being seen this way
You send all the doctors
But they really just proctor my life’s events
Pick at my brain and expose what causes me pain
I will never heal this way!
…
Respect my wishes
Undo these stitches
Let me scream which is
My life’s calling!
I’ve received a gift
To make an ordinary life shift
But I am still crying
Over filling with tears
My soul as a tub
Only filling with fears.
There is no escaping my mind!
Raise me up
I’m broken
But a piece of my love is my token
To redeem myself.
Don’t leave me this way
All there is, is rage!
Join me on the stage
This is the way
We turn the page
And light the book on fire!
Burn, ***** burn.
Reckless
The broken are the most dangerous because we have nothing left to lose
You cannot threaten me with a noose
String me up and hang me
But you will only encourage me
If I told you I was broken
I have nothing left to offer
If I told you that you were too late
If I told you
I was drowning in my sleep
…
Would you even care?