For the last five years I have treated you
As a closed door
Nailed shut
Buried in a graveyard I taught my heart to forget

But looking at you
Hearing the sound of our mixed laughter
Your warm brown eyes that have always felt like coming home  

I'm not so sure anymore
It just seems like this could work this time
And what an utterly terrifying thought
That I could end up with what I had always wanted from the beginning
How utterly poetic
If my first love also was my last