i'm not scared of lots of things
heights
spiders
flying

when i was a child
clowns never made me cry

silence was always my friend
it was comfy and safe
but now it's tormenting
now it's frightening

nightmares having me waking up
in the middle of the night
with a racing heart and
tears in my eyes

pitch black eyes staring down at me;
i wasn't a human anymore
i was an object for someone elses' delight

i didn't scream
i didn't cry
silence silence silence
it's as if i died

he threw my shirt at me
so i could clean up the mess
he left behind

i wasn't scared of lots of things
heights
spiders
flying
they still don't scare me

but memories haunt me
and they tear me up inside