Okay, so you didn't have the answers
Not that I really expected it to be that easy
But like torn notebook paper clutched in your hands, you had clues
Lovingly, you opened your palm to share them with me
Now it's time to debrief on the wisdom I've received


It's not that I want to be where my head is at.
It's that I'm so very tired
And clawing out will take so very much energy
That it seems I'm better off staying than fighting

I have to learn how to live for myself
Because if you give until there's nothing left,
You're well and truly gone
I have to learn how to cry
How to not be abused

I have to figure out what's left behind the smile

No one's okay
You've both tried to **** yourselves one, two times
It's not going to get better
Everyday is going to be a fight, to choose to be okay

But as much of a catastrophe as life is
there's going to be some pretty amazing things along the way
you promised

Find those moments, hug them to your chest until they melt through your skin and lend warmth to your heart
Breathe space into your life

You're a badass, you say
Look in the mirror each day and remind yourself that

This world would be missing so much light if you chose to leave it

Remember that, every day