I tense up, an ice statue, afraid to even breathe
You're sitting so, so close, I can feel the heat from your arm
I send my eyes out of focus, to some dust speck in the corner
I don't want you to leave
But I don't think I want anything anymore actually because from the moment you sat down, the only person who mattered was you
I'm a puppet, waiting to be animated by the words of your spell
But they never come, thankfully, because you don't even know what I'm thinking
You don't even know you're too, too close
Eventually you get up and walk away
And power is restored to my limbs

But I'm so so scared because what happens when someone does know?
That with one touch on the wrist I can be controlled

Because this is what you taught me
You taught me on that bench, across from the lockers
To shut my mouth, sit very still, and nod yes
With tears in my eyes and a smile plastered on my face
You taught me to take anything you did or said
With sewed shut lips and a bounce in my step

You taught me how to be abused

And the thing that gets me most is that you never even said you were sorry