Why is it that when I'm with you
I can never seem to be myself?
Why does talking with you instantly
Turn me into someone else?
I know this arrangement is a little unstable
But I'll keep it in place as long as I'm able
Because if you saw all the parts of me
All those things I don't let you see
I know you'd react quite badly
So I gaurd my secrets quite madly

I know one day this will fall apart
One day I will have to reveal my heart
But there's a place I need to be in by then
So, until then, I just hope nothing happens
Because if that wall comes tumbling down
And I'm in a bad place for my secrets to be found
I'd never see all of those dreams I have through
So despite the foundational cracks, I still hide from you

And I know things will never be the same again
When I've changed so drastically from beginning to end
And despite all of the advice that everyone's said
I want to get to my goal, so I keep my secrets in my head