They ask why I do not speak,
Why I am not using my words,
When I don’t know how to keep,
And why my heart is exposed to cold

I've made mistakes that caused harm,
I thought all could be fixed by actions,
If I kept myself strong and calm,
That I could earn others forgiveness

But the scars I've caused are deep,
And the guilt too heavy a burden,
I can barely close my eyes to sleep,
For others happiness I have stolen

Forgive me for my bitter rants,
My vengeful stabs of jealousy,
Days that I was only unpleasant,
And the harm I caused indifferently

I know I ask for more than I deserve,
More than I have shown for others,
I hope you see small light preserved,
That bleeds every day for lost lovers

So let me love, and let me soar,
For I have not lived to the end,
Let me try and shine once more,
And this darkness transcend