you know it's getting bad when you're starting to act like a teleprompter for your friends
trying to coax them to the conclusion but too afraid, too empty, too smothered, too something to just come out and say "i'm probably not okay"
and see, i can't even type it here without first qualifying it as only probably
there's a map to my chaos my words are your guide you can find hints of my despair on the Radiator or in the taste of Codeine despair as bitter cold and dark as it gets
i've desperately got my hands to my throat i'm giving you the choking sign i'm so far gone down the rabbit hole that you can only hear the echoes of my sighs
but this is my last flare so i will hover over the light of its hope until you either see me or it dies