Muted by the silence that I chose

Paralyzed by the fear of acting for myself

Trapped in a cage of my creation

I die in every way I try to live

Pain made me numb

Being numb renders my emotions absent

Like a dog patiently waiting for his owner that died

Like a child without a home

Like a cigarette lit but not smoked

Like a star who's light could never reach our eyes

I feel like all these things

Sad, lonely, pointless and invisible

Like I've always been.

Like I'll always be.