I do not like you
I do not like the feeling of you
I do not like the smell of paper and inked fingers at 4 am
I do not like the feel of a paper heart
I do not like writing poems for a boy with a sunny smile
I do not like the feeling of want,of wanting to wander mindlessly in the vast universe that is his soul
I do not like the feeling of free falling,no safety vest on
I do not like feeling the need to surrender,the need to peel off my layers until I am nothing but paper fine flesh and scars and everything that I had tried to conceal
I do not like feeling the need to expose myself to you
I do not like feeling the need to come undone in your arms
I do not like the feeling of wanting to trust you,to trust you enough to let you steal me away from my love affair with solitude and sadness
I do not like the feeling of wanting to be a cliché disaster,of wanting to be your beautiful mess
I do not like the feeling of being afloat,my head in the clouds
I do not like thinking of you
I do not like feeling for you
I do not like you