every vertebrae vibrates and cracks with every move i make tried to put food in my mouth but never really eat close my eyes but never fall asleep
apathy is eating me whole alive and unhealthy words were uttered promised as if a contract was signed but a vow is just a set of words its a myth a myth you always believed in like how you believed in tooth fairies and wishing stars like how i believed when you said you will always be there and like how i believed when you said you were fine
the cuban missile crisis is waiting to be read but nothing really comes into your head every second is doubtful i hated seconds, time and space the culprit of desolations even worst than famines and wars because the worst scarcity would be time itself
when time nudges you awake a remnant of an hour earlier is left in a snap the left part of his body was numb and he uses his right to hold you hand to squeeze it tightly and would never let go like how tightly you held me when i was about to drown during our swimming lessons when i was but a little girl believing she was a real mermaid uses his conscious eye to take a mili-second glimpse and calls your name when he is in pain
everyone repeats their questions more than once because he wouldn't hear they always asked if he sees them because his left eye couldn't see it was never like that
you weren't that guy in a hospital gown not even the one who couldn't walk by himself you weren't him. that wasn't you you were strong, you could walk and talk you were the team captain and the coach a father of four and a dreamer you weren't that guy. *you will never be that guy