On my knee's pulling out my hair All that around me were nothing but misery and despair Suicidal thoughts were running through my mind My heart was shattered but every one around my seemed to remain bind Blind to the fact I happily would take my on life Crying myself to sleep almost every-night Because I would just hide behind a smile and say I was fine The misery turned to anger,the anger turned to rage Emotionally it felt like I was trapped in a cage Fear,paranoia and apathy A far cry from the child that I was The child was long gone and I felt nothing but loss Grieving for things I had never even known Abandoned all hope And trudging a long a dark and lonely path Yet I seen something a faint light in the distance so I struggled and I clawed and I pick myself up But something has changed I stopped looking outward looking for someone to blame And I realised soon The light wasn't far away It come from within me I had to become broken to become awoken The path of enlightened was always within me Had lessons I had to learn for me to fully see The truth was never lost to me I know that now Just had to look at my self and the world with a different perception To fully appreciate to truly value the beauty of this lesson The empty pit in my belly was no longer there Spirit was always around me but this was now my time to be come aware My soul had to become broken to gain deeper insight To back in the love and glory of this empathetic light