Why don’t I hate you, after all you have done to me? I have never known anyone who could destroy me so completely. I was blinded by the false vows you made of a future; Only to find out you were nothing but an abuser. I had no warning,you just suddenly vanished; Leaving me to question, and,my inner demons to vanquish. It took all I had not to curl up and die. Instead I wrote down my feelings, and, gave permission cry. In a letter addressed to you, I never sent; I poured out my “Whys” until I was spent. I acknowledged the future you told me was a lie. It was time to let go, and, say my final goodbyes. I struck a match, to burn my memories of you. I watched the flames grow, and then it was through. A piece of my heart died the day you left me alone. I wondered how could someone have a heart made of stone. I had to create my own ending to us. I’m forever changed, and, I won't be so quick to trust. I hope that one day I am able to forgive you. Because in doing that, I can reclaim what I most value. Myself.