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Ritz Dec 2020
I met you in the dark,
You lit me up.
I met you on my knees,
You picked me up.

When my light would go out,
You would always be there to create a new flame.
But little did I know, you were just melting my candle,
Until it would disappear.

I always wanted a sun to brighten up my life,
But you became the moon in my darkest hour.
You told me, "when it rains look for rainbows, and when it's dark look for the stars"
I believed you and then looked towards the sky, but little did I know that you would destroy my stars, and cloud my rainbows.

I told you the light is easy to love, show me your darkness,
But you just laughed in my face and said "Angels are just Devils"
I believed you were my angel,
But you turned out to be a devil sent to destroy me.

Long ago, my mom told me something and I believed her,
When things started changing, I took a step out of my fantasy and saw the real you.
You used me, said you loved me, but then broke me.
And then I realized, if you truly valued me, you wouldn't have lost me in the first place.

I knew I would never be perfect for you,
But I still kept on trying, feeling stupid since there was no you and me.
You made me face defeat, but I never let myself be defeated.
As you broke me, I never gave up hope.
Because in the end, broken crayons still color.
And if I let my past block the light of my present, there would be no future for me,
And you would win.
Pinelle Bikouta Jul 2020
Ever been kissed with no meaning,
Yet had everything seeming,
As if it were all alright?

I got kissed like it was nothing,
And yet to me it felt like something,
And lately that's been haunting my mind.

It's like my kisser had nothing felt,
Yet it felt like he needed no one else,
And that's why lately I'm not fine.

We know the sun is for the day,
And night is where the moon lays,
But the love behind that kiss felt like sunshine at midnight.

I lay here and feel broken,
And I swear that this was spoken,
But I'm repeating that I do not feel right.

I got kissed by someone I thought I loved,
But to love wasn't enough...
Because in the end it felt like I wasn't even liked.
ALARY Mar 2020
Early morning
When little birds' songs are heard
Blinding sunshine pours into one window
With the smell of coffee
I smiled as I tasted the bitterness
Suddenly remembering you for it still lingers in my heart

I wanted you to love me as much as I did
But as WE, US
Was all in my head
I am just someone you need to fill your void

I said "I love you"
You responded "I love you too" with hugs and kisses, yes, neither it was warm nor cold
It doesn't feel right

No matter how much I love you
Your heart doesn't belong to me from the start
Your eyes didn't light up to my presence
Blinded with love I still continue to love you
I was alone in this fairytale of mine

It was then you no longer needed me
You rejected me, you denied me
It was easy for you to let go, easier for you to forget, for I was a nobody to you
I am the only one carrying this love
I am losing my mind that maybe
There can be YOU and I

My heart became numb
Unloving you is the hardest thing to do
If I could unsee the videos in my head
I'll erase all my memories of you
So I can't remember you
I know I can't be with you
Your smile nukes me, obliterates logic, burns my bridges to sanity,
Your eyes, deep depths of the ocean, my covert escape from reality
This feeling it seems so wrong, but feels just about right
Some moments of ecstasy, some days spent feeling contrite
The heart so very forgetful of the past, the pains and the ache
These dreams made of brittlest of glass, bound to crash and break
It takes me further away from the truth, my wild running imagination
Dropping these anchors, my words may need to weather, storms of tribulation.
After a few days of high flying, I'm back to where I was, Ground Zero. Course correction to hell. Normal service resumed.
Archer Feb 2020
Part of me died last night
The part that cared
I cried out the pieces
Sobbed until they were all gone
Parts of me streamed down my face
Wiped away
Can I build something
Using the salty droplets
Why did they hold so much worth to me
I fought to let them go
Now they are nothing but saline stains on my cheeks
Why was I clutching them so tightly
Because they were yours
They were never my tears
It was the last thing I had
The only thing left
I didn't want to see them evaporate
Vanish into the air
Like your love for me did
In my mind
The worst part
Is knowing you never really were here
I just wanted it so badly
That I manifested it
Using everything I had
I willed it into being
You were never real
How much of myself can I afford to lose
The vacant rooms in my heart
Once a vivid, beautiful home
Now occupied with nothing more than dust
And the briny crust of your teardrops
i'm sorry that i'm not enough
i'm sorry you thought this was love
i'm sorry my walls are too tough
i'm sorry i threw down the glove
i'm sorry my edges are rough
i'm sorry when push came to shove
i'm sorry was never enough
FrankieM Feb 2019
Contrary to popular belief
You don’t stop loving a man after he hits you
If anything it just leads you to wonder
Why did I deserve this? What did I do wrong? This is my fault, I should’ve seen this coming.
What can I do to fix this? How could I make myself better? How can I prevent this from happening again?

Contrary to popular belief
When he says he won’t do it again, he doesn’t actually mean it.
It’ll only gets worse.
How far can I go? Why does she stay?
I have her wrapped so tight around my finger and my fingers so tight around her throat.
Why does she love me? Will she believe me when I say I love her, that I will change?

Contrary to popular belief
Things will only change for the first couple days.
He will apologize.
Why do you love me? How did I become such a **** up? I had a rough childhood, I don’t want to end up like my father. Couldn’t you see how you provoked me? What would I ever do without you? Could you please forgive me?

Contrary to popular belief
You will forgive him with a lump in your throat, this time is no different than the last.
Things will never be the same
You’ll step more lightly when he’s near, breathe more quietly. You’ll feel the same fear you felt when he first pushed you against the wall every time a door closes too hard. You’ll still lie to everybody about the bruises.

Contrary to popular belief
You can only lie to yourself for so long
You don’t really believe he’ll change, but you’re afraid of change anyways. You’ll settle. I know the real him, he didn’t mean to hurt me. His anger just gets the best of him sometimes, but it’s not his fault. He’s really sweet, I swear. He loves me.

Contrary to popular belief
He doesn’t love you
When he struck you your best interest was the least of his. He knew he did wrong.
He doesn’t understand the severity of what he’s done, nor does he care to. History repeats itself.

Contrary to your beliefs
He never loved you
A rough draft. Unfortunately I could go on. Unfortunately I’ll have to.
Lara Ozdemir Dec 2018
you love me, you love me not
how many times do you command
pulling me in and out
while you strum the strings on my heart
i ask only since i’ve wilted
struggling not to give away my life
Inspired by exs’ whom I endured many heartbreaks from a naive period in my life
Aa Harvey Jun 2018
Something


I want you to be something you can never be;
Something you could never feel, deep inside of me.
I want you to see something; something you could never see.
Something you could never dream,
That’s always been inside of me.


Something someone said,
Stuck in my mind and affected my head.
Something someone should have been,
Fades away with apathy.
Something you will never be,
Is truly into me.


Now all I can do is learn to hate something.
Something or anything; nothing with integrity.
No dislike of apathy, for it has no reaction;
All I hate is all I love, for all it has is what I need.
Passion, reaction, satisfaction;
You used to give me all of these.


But you will never be anything,
When we could have been everything!
We chose to be nothing real.
We could still chose to be something,
If only we could remember how to feel.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.
Shrivastva MK Apr 2018
Aaj ke pyaar me ab wo purane zazbaat nahi,
Sirf aansoo hi milenge logon se par vishwas nahi,
Rona tou Saab ab aadat ban *** hai,
Kyuki ab en aansuo ki kimat  koi khash nahi,

Ab es dil ko kisi ki chahat ka intezar nahi,
Lafzon se ghayal hain hum,Kisi khanzar ki darkaar nahi,
Jise sazaya tha murat ki tarah es sine me humne,
Usne hi kahan,Hume aapse pyaar nahi,

Hum wo kasmein bhul sakte,tute khwab nahi,
Dil tod wo kahte hai,Hume tou kuchh bhi yaad nahi,
Aaj kahte wo humse,maaf kr dijiye hume
Par mere ek bhi prashno ka unke paas jawab nahi,

I hate the love which is done only for selfish reason...
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