Days gradually getting longer while circles keep growing smaller. I’m alone in this crowded city but I know that it’s only temporary. Time is wasted, I guess the clock had too much to drink last night. Began treating society like varsity, I started not to care if I was accepted. Dreams I once promised myself to pursue are now forgotten and neglected. Even if things don’t always go my way, I just hope that everything will be okay. Sometimes I feel closer to my dreams but then I wake up and realise that it was all in my sleep. According to my frame of reference, dreams delayed may always feel like dreams denied. Now I have to put on hold stories about success that urgently need to be told. Too many times the world has made me feel like an abandoned church, but in your eyes I’ll always be a cathedral.
My confidence levels are getting lower and lower; I can feel it in my sleep. I’m slowly progressing but progressing nonetheless but I still feel like I’m disappointing myself. I’m doing my utmost best, the worst thing you could do is compare me to someone else. I’m still holding on no matter how bad it gets; it hurts but I try my best not to let my frustrations show. I can’t carry on like this though, eventually I’ll have to let everything go. Eventually I’ll have to let go and forget everything I ever wanted to be. Days gradually getting longer while impatient frustrations get the best of me.