At times I feel like everything and everyone and the universe itself conspired against me. Henceforth, I feel like I been wronged the truth far beneath me. I cannot reach it I cannot grasp why has the love I longed for so late to come to pass Stuck between sanity and insane Am I going crazy or is this normal All in all I feel the same Been heart broken a billion and one times Why has my kind heart and my gentleness been taken advantage of so many times Perhaps I have to become a Wolf something I didn't want to be All I wanted is to enjoy the rest of my days as a Lamb a Child of Christ...you see?
However, it's a world of ruthlessness and the wise say the good die young So am I predicting my own death is that what must be done? Let it be what God wants it to be But if I were to depart soon let me leave a message to thee Do not wage war against the Holy one for his reign is everlasting while the King of the Earth promises money,woman,fame and even a name he cannot take what the Holy One ordained...the promise of everlasting life whoever believe upon his name and his sacrifice shall be saved. Don't get it twisted you are to push and to strive for excellence in an orderly fashion for perfection in a your actions and sound judgement in your holy yet spiritual journey you have been in control of this whole time Don't act out on what the fleshly desires want Focus on slaying each and every single demon corrupting your temple a temple belonging to you and to God Let Christ guide you through your spiritual struggles Your worldly battles and your carnal pleasures The fight is real your mind in an estate of despair All alone writing this and the words that rhyme All I want is peace A quiet deepening feeling I have hardened this soul of mine Beyond the limits of my capability Now the shell has rusted and become unbreakable No one understands love all I know my love is unattainable Sorrow and Lamentation are my only escape now I am alone walking with Christ talking to God Some say am a lunatic To some spiritually alive But here I am God Don't let me perish without acquiring everlasting life