I'll buy expensive things
shiny
sparkly
red
sensual things
for him
I will bite my lip
and hold my tongue
I  will paint my nails
I will cry when my thighs touch
and eat skip meals so
i can
look
T
H
I
S

B
I
G

for him
untag myself in ugly
memorable photos
and ya know what is really ******
I don't even know who he is yet.