My white privilege is being proud to be black I am white so I can be over the top and outspoken about being black I can say whatever I want about whiteness and or blackness It is self criticism nothing to do with anyone else's assumptions black lives matter more than white lives is the mantra I use to self medicate pick yourself up by the bootsraps making black children excited instead of scared from the trauma of a racially imbalanced world of whiteness in a world that legally denies its traumatic process upon its victims a society structured on the denial that whiteness is a mental illness