let me just start out by saying, i'm sorry that my life's a mess, but you can leave anytime you'd like.
that is, if you want to.

i'm not trying to make you go, but i'm not trying to make you stay.
you don't deserve this ****.
if you left, I wouldn't be that mad.
matter of fact, i'd understand.
I know it's tiring; dealing with all of this.

just want you to know i'd still love you even if you left me high and dry: dangling like my diamond earrings.
i'd still cheer you on in life.
no matter what, i'll stay by your side.
even if you stopped loving me, i'd still love you.

I promise not to shed a tear when I see you up at Sunoco.
just know that I still love you when you're lying in her bed.
I won't make you leave, j, but I won't make you stay.
just want you to know that I won't wilt when you've made your choice.

i'm not trying to make you stay, but i'm not trying to make you go.
I don't deserve you.
when you leave I won't be that mad.
matter of fact, i'll understand.
I know it's tiring; dealing with all my ****.

just want you to know that i'll still love you, even when you leave me high and dry: shattered like the mirror on my wall.
i'll still cheer you on in life.
no matter what, i'll stay by your side.
even if you stopped loving me, i'll still love you.

(the tinsel has lost it's gleam. my silk roses have wilted. the engagement ring has been tucked away beneath the floorboards. I think i'm going mad. I swear, I can still hear your voice as the summer storms roll in around 2 am. I miss you so much I feel as though I might just- just- [stick my head right in the oven!].)