Sorry for not going to see you today
When you're always there for me
And I'm crying, actually crying
with actual tears.
Whilst I get told to make more of an effort
because you won't be here forever
thinking about all the times I walk past your house
and didn't say hello.
I say sorry and usually I make the same mistake over and over and over.
Because it never seems real
it will never seem real
until I walk past your house
and it's empty.
I avoided my family all evening
because I could hear your name and ambulance from upstairs
and I didn't go to see you and make sure you were well.
I didn't go to see you
I didn't go to see you
replays in my head
because I won't see you tomorrow
'cause you'll be in a hospital bed.