I want to believe you.
I want to believe that I
Ignite something new in you
And bring light into your life,
But its hard.

Its hard for me to imagine
That there is any light left in me.
The idea that I am not barren,
But an oasis where you feel
You can rest within
Scares me.

I have lived my whole life
As nothing. I have been taught
That being something like this
In someone elses eyes
Is devastating.

Because to be this thing,
This light that cannot be put out,
Is so monumentally important
That there is no way it was
Meant for me.

I can only hope that as you
Stare into the wreck that
Is unfortunately everything I am,
You still find something
Worth while.