Sense I was little I have been close to my sister
though lately I actually hate her
and it's not a teen age moody hate
it's a rage
I feel like hitting something every time I hear her name.

I use to look up to her
she use to be my world,
now she a stranger,
That I'll never talk to again

The worst part is it feel like she died
but I see her around
she post on facebook
I see her in town
I want to go up to her and yell and scream
but instead I lock my self in my room and try to breath

Cause sense what happened happened
I have worse anxitey
I feel like I can't breath
I hate her with a passion
and yes its a strong word
but that how I feel right now

She left me alone
like i was nothing to her
she use to be my hero
the one I went to for everything
now she someone I despise
I don't like seeing her so I just hid.

I feel like I miss her
like she is dead
and a part of her is
and that's what I dread

Its like the loss of the love one, without any closer
and that what ***** the most
the feeling that I can't move on
cause I lost something dear to me
and I want to be dreaming
I want her back more then anything
but I know I'll never forgive her for what she's done...

And I don't know why I'm writing this
Maybe I'm just fighting this feel of hopelessness
Maybe I'm hoping someone will answer this and tell me why thing's have to be like this
they don't have to be like this
but she can't fix this
I'm broken and she did this
and I'm ready to end this.

My sister use to be my best friend....
and now she's my worst enemy.