I promised

I would be all yours

but I just can't help but share

and I know

that it isn't right

I know it isn't fair


I promised

that I wouldn't drink

promised

that I wouldn't smoke

and here I am

useless again

as I sit

and watch you choke


I know

I also

*promised you

that I would not be dumb

but the sad truth is that

I can't do life

unless I'm numb


I know I could have had it all

I ****** it all away

and now I know

she's too far gone

there's nothing left to say