Trying to race my mind
It usually wins
My pain comes alive
And so it begins

I'm thinking
Wanna be drinking
Sinking
With an inkling
Of what comes next
I'm flying
And dying
Don't like me?
*******
You're lying
So keep trying
To produce that copious shade

I'm frustrated
Recreated
Into the fray
I'll navigate it
Swipe here
A slash there
I'll gravitate
****
A wink here
The charm there
I radiate it
I always get what I want
Can't negotiate it

I want to live my life
Like the ones in the movies
And I start to think
My life's a parody
Of a tragedy
Deepening my grief

But I'm still alive...