I'm just barely getting by Holding it together as long as I can Keep a straight face Don't think about it Don't look at it Don't touch it Don't you ******* dare I catch a glimpse of it out of the corner of my eye And it's burns in an unfamiliar way I haven't come to terms with the fact that you aren't in my life anymore Things are changing You are leaving And I am leaving too I always thought you'd be there An active part of my every day life The one person who would always be with me Through thick and thin And I just cannot get myself to understand that you are not It hurts too much So I change the subject Even though I'm the only one around And eventually I have to touch it To see if it still hurts And each time I do, it is worse than the time before And I hate that I still wait on your texts I hate that I still need you I hate that this is all so hard I don't understand why people would want to risk falling in love, if it could end like this If it could hurt this much I know that's what everyone says "I'll never fall in love again, I'll never be happy again" But you will Whether or not you will ever be in love enough or happy enough to fill that gaping hole...well that's another question Knowing how special something was that you had And knowing that the likelihood of you finding a love like that again is 7,423,569,767 to 1 It's devastating And I want to forgive you I want to move forward I want to take it back, just like I said that I would Any under any other circumstance I would... I did Until I couldn't anymore