Lonely is the only emotion I feel, sitting on the counter Plopped down, flicking guilt Remanence on paper, I use to heal I chose to be ill I'm the unattached ****** desire Conversation not required Tormented love, consumed and killed Around this pole, twisted and unthrilled Patiently waiting on something My ******* body feels nothing Still insanity quenches the thrusting When will we finally become ***** and musty I can no longer conceal our secret, smiling Annoyed with me, I'm done hiding Tonight I'm not grieving Deceived, here is your rope of control I need to find the cover for my gaping hole