putting faith in another human being creates in me a fear so vast and enduring it's hard to fit it in one imperfect lifetime trust distorted by the history of things done to and by us in the name of love creates a doubting monologue in my head that manifests in unattractive neediness a seemingly bottomless hunger for the reassurance of your touch I fervently covet your singular devotion show me you'll do anything to silence this non-believer with love so constant and unreserved I feel it from the outside in