at night
sacred dark setting in
between the sheets i crawl
fingers seeking out pleasure

i lapse
past times
an enemy this body was
sensation, undefined and improper

a shame
i cry
afterwards
the pleasure fleeting, my heart remorseful

remember, i demand
those last hands
hungry they were, owned, not yours
another's

there was no breath
only suspension
a time-lapse
a stopover

tired
a bud that has forgotten
the bee's
sting

i swell, my mind a swirl
vivify, vivify, vivify,
harder
breathe