When i look at kids all around
It constantly reminds me
As to what a good person i once was
Untainted by the filth of society
Uncorrupted mind
Free mind
A mind which didn't think or analyse too much
A mind which didn't try to make sense of everything
Soul intact
Then like everyone else i underwent the metamorphorsis...
...i grew up
And things were no longer the same
The society had pulled me into its ***** mess
I had lost my sense of innocence
The purity of my soul was tarnished
The devil got a big chunk of it
I was no longer a fan of light
Darkness is what started to like
Perhaps when i saw the dark side of life
It affected me adversely
And i've been trying to recover ever since
I keep telling myself that i'm better than this
But somehow i just can't seem to find my old self..
...The 'me' who had goodness in him
I'm fighting the world
I'm fighting my inner demons
But i seem to be failing
With every passing day i can feel myself falling into this abyss of chaos and hopelessness
The pressures of society
The burden of expectations
I'm a grown up
I'm expected to do the right things
I'm supposed to be sensible
I'm constantly judged
I honestly don't know how i've made it through the jungle of life and reached this far
Seems only like yesterday
When i was a small boy
Enjoying life
Not worrying about nothing
And here i am today
With a bruised and battered soul
And a fragile body
Life has virtually drained me out
I mean...have you seen the world lately?
It's a freaking circus
A heartless monster
The competition is unreal
People will do almost anything for the sake of success
Even betray and backstab you
When i was a kid i always thought that life was all good and happy
And the world was such a beautiful place
And then when i grew up...
....i realized how heartless both life and the world can be at times
At times when i look at kids
I envy them
They are in such a good phase of their lives
Sometimes i wish i never grew up
I was better off as a kid